So latelyI've had alot on my mind that i wonder WHY?, and don't know the answer to, and if you dont mind ill share some with you. First of all, why do we have trials? They r not my favorite thing. I've learned, Heavenly father gives us trials for a reason! For instance, school for me. Ive been graduated from highschool for 5 years now.(3years since i acutally got my diploma) And i have finally decided its time for me to go back, because i dont wanna do McDonalds all my life. Well I got everything done that i needed to do before school started in August, well i keep getting little letters in the mail telling me, "one more thing befor you're accepted", and I'm like what the. i'm getting frustrated. So im thinking, why, why me?............ well I'm sure He will let me know why sooner or later. Maybe he is telling me that McDonalds is where i need to be right now and possibly forever, if thats the case fine, no one knows me better then he does.
Second thing is, i REALLY don't understand why we r not pregnant yet, why cant he just send us a little letter saying, "this day and this is the date when u will get pregnant," type thing ya know, but the "TRIAL" is that we have been trying for almost 2 years and no success. And then there r soooo many people i know that get pregnant that either, were on birth control, or just got married, and in my opinion, aren't in the right time to be having kids. And half of them didnt wnat to have kids. and then again there r people like us who really really really want to have kids and r trying but cant or dont know why yet.
so far thats all right now. Well to keep myself from getting depressed, like i was last sunday, i just keep trying to tell myself, EVERYTHING happens for a reason. One of my favorite quotes is:
I NEVER SAID IT WOULD BE EASY, I ONLY SAID IT WOULD BE WORTH IT!!!
So now when i get feeeling frustrated, or sad, or depressed, or whatever, i think of that quote and i also start thinking of hymns. I am really glad to be a member of the church. I love my life, and i AM thankful for trials, eventhough i dont like them, cause i know they have strengthen me. thanks for reading this. Love ya all
